Friday, January 27, 2006, 11:29 AM

the medication's gone




sometimes my stubbornness gets ppl around me frustrated.
but hey, try to see it the other way.
at least I get things done when I said I will.
not procrastinate nor half past six :)
obligations also frustrates me likewise.
perhaps the girl's anti-socialness is gettin' around u.
of late I start feelin the edgyness and third degree of outbursts.
almost like how couples do,but we stop short of that.
maybe what we really need is to reminsice bout the good times daily,
take some time alone and let it breathe.
I never really understand how some seek joy in wreckin' havoc
in relationships.
bloody free and sadistic.

anyways, heavier notes aside,
everytime I see her, she lights me up like a fire starter.
so excited, like a puppy so happy to see its owner come home.
whywhywhy her X factor sooo frickin' high?!?! ;)
she touches you everywhere, you feel it everywhere.
feelin' a lil' scared right now, its coming.
I fear only the worst can happen.

I know its never me you're calling out to.
like how you no need reasons when you love someone,
there's no need for one when you don't either.
when you said I just don't love you no more,
those simple words hit so hard.
but you already turned my whole world upside down wayy before that.
guess those telling signs were there,
so I was not caught offguard.
she could make the girl laugh so easily,
but she rarely makes her smile.